Testimony, a story worth sharing :)

So I was given the opportunity to share testimony on today's Sunday service in HOPE KS. It was quite a last minute thing for me because I only got the message from church brother yesterday and I have not prepare anything yet. But looking at this as an opportunity to serve and thinking I do have something in mind to share, I agreed to share on the next day. So this post in basically about how I came to know God, and how He bring me into this amazing family of Christ. 

For your information I come from a non-Christian family, so Jesus Christ was just a "logo" for Christian before I know God. 

At the year 2010, I was invited by a new friend to join this Christian event known as the "ISCF Rally". This was the first Christian event that I ever attended in my whole life, and this was the first time ever I came to know more about Jesus Christ. I basically don't remember much about what was preached that night but I remember I was moved, but thinking that I need to consider about what my family will think and so on, I did not do anything at all. When I came back from that event, I started reading some of the bible verses on twitter posted by different people. That's what I did for that whole year. 

On the following year, I was invited again to join "ISCF Rally" and by God's grace, I accepted Christ that night. I don't really remember what was preached *again* but that night I just know that I needed God in my life and I give in to Him. But nothing really change after that night, life goes on like normal, I don't pray, I don't have a bible, I don't go to church and so on. But our amazing God is just so amazing, He didn't let me go away from Him after that night, He sent my Christian friend in form 6 to come and talk to me. These friends of mine, they taught me about prayer, taught me about bible and encourage me to join their fellowship and Sunday service. Initially I was reluctant to join their activity because all this is a whole new different thing in my life and I wonder my family members will not be happy about it, therefore I hold back from joining them. But they never give up on me, they still sms me every week to ask me whether am I joining their Friday fellowship and I'll find all the reason to not join them. 

Then there comes one of the worse part of my life, my father was in and out of hospital for times because of his health condition, and my family was falling apart. I live in fear every night, fear of my parents argument, fear of my father health condition, fear of unable to continue study for some reason. There comes a night that when I was so helpless, I remember Jesus, I remember prayer and I started praying. From there, I was given peace in my mind, and I started praying ever since. That was the only thing I did as a "Christian" at that point of time. Then God is so amazing that He answer my prayer, he not only gave me peace but also to my family. Not immediately obviously but from time to time. 

After realizing what God has done for me, I know I also need to do what He want me to do. So I decided to join my friend in their church which is Klang Presbyterian Church. I started joining their camp, which was the first step I took to grow in Christ. Thank God also, he not only placed me in a group with all my form 6 friend who encouraged me, he also gave me a very good teacher which I look up to, Uncle Jacker. With this group of people, I can easily share my thoughts and ask freely whatever question that I have in mind. The camp was an eye opener for me, I know a lot more about God and Christianity. When I came back, I told myself that I want to know more about God, so I joined Friday youth fellowship at KPC and know God more. Due to family issue, I still don't join any Sunday service.*once or twice only as far as I remember*

Just when I got to know that I'm coming to Sarawak to further my study. I'm worried at that point of time, because all the time I'm in Klang, I was brought up by my friend. What happen when I'm coming here alone, it's like I'm lost. But my friend told me, don't be afraid, pray and God will provide a way for you. They also prayed for me as well. Just when I'm in Unimas, I was quite lost but again God brought me His people, Brother John and Brother Peter, they are Unimas graduate and yet passionate people to serve the Lord in HOPE KS up till now. These brothers came to ask us to join their "new-intake" dinner, that time I was like "Wow, God has sent me His people again", prayed and thank God for it. Then thanks to Thomas, the only Christian I know back in Klang to accompany me to join this event, I set foot into HOPE KS for the first time. 

HOPE KS is the church first church I joined in Sarawak and it's the church that I have been all this while here. Praise the Lord for the amazing people that I met here. There are the church leader who's unimas graduate and serve in HOPE KS up till now, and also all the brother and sister who's from Unimas and UiTM. Then at here, I was given a lot of opportunity to serve God, be it in any way and I'm still looking forward to serve the Lord more. 

The reason of this post is to remind myself how God has brought me this far. And the truth is that I'm really thankful for God. Church asked us to find word to thank God today and I was out of word, because of the love that God has for us that is so amazing that I just can't put it to word. But I know that God he know what I have inside me. To you all out there, always remember that God has the best thing for you. What you've planned and prayed might not happen but know that its not happening because God has something better for you in His mind. Have faith in Him. 

Here's a verse that I want to share with you all, it's a verse that really connect to me since the day I know Jesus up to today. It's also one of the verse that I so appreciate that I memorizes it.

Jeremiah 29:11 

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"

Thank you all for reading this lengthy post, and I appreciate you who read up to this line. Thank you and may the good Lord bless you. 

Regards,

Pangky Pang

The starting point of new life.

Its been the 2nd week and 3rd week coming on in Sarawak. I know it's a little late for all this update but tonight is the 1st night I actually used the wifi at such a speed. Or else, I can't even excess to twitter :(

To a lot of parents as well as students from peninsular. It's gonna be a short tough time for us. But that's kinda not for me. I was extremely fine and is kinda excited for coming to Unimas. Things are just the same for me, no difference.

1st Sept 2012.

I woke up at 4.00am in the morning. It's super tiring because I slept at 1.00am earlier. But I guessed it's because of the adrenaline in the body that keeps me awake all time. Get ready and there I leave my home to LCCT airport. Once in LCCT, we check in all our luggage, then we still have a long time till we have to enter the departure gate. Then we saw the people who's flying to Sabah and further study in UMS, talked to them and sent them off because their flight was half an hour earlier than ours :)

Then by the time for us to go into the departure hall, we give our goodbye to family and friends. I know and realized this part is ain't gonna be easy because someone gonna be super emotional at that point. And at that point of time I realized a lot of thing. 

Parents loved their children dearly all the time, they might not tell or show but they do care a lot, they might use the wrong way or use the way you are unhappy with to show you their love, but after all, they still love. Not to put this on anyone but myself. I hated my father for his wrong doing. True, I used the word "hated". I hated him for making my family falling apart. For making my life miserable. My grandma, aunts and others tell me that he loved us a lot but I was so stubborn to listen to it and all I think is he's a bad man and a man that I'll not respect or be in my life. But things and people does change with time, and I changed, not completely but I don't hate him like I did before. Ok. Skip that. This is the problem with me, I don't have a draft with me of what I have to type and I just type everything that's in my mind. Please bare with it. 

So on that particular day, I was flying to Sarawak with Pek, Tan, Teck Yong, Yu Yan, Kian Wei n YY. And this is what I see, Tan's father didn't attend that morning, I wonder why but I did not ask. But his mum and brother was there with him. Took few photo for them and before its time for us to go into departure hall. Tan's mum went already. To me, his mum and dad is not the type of people who'll express their love, and maybe Tan's parents in sobbing for Tan's leaving but they don't let the children see it. Therefore they leave earlier before Tan leave. N that kinda prove when Tan's mum is like asking "Are you ok and getting used there?" when the 2nd week is over already. Tan, if you are reading this. I remember you saying about your mum and your mum. Have you call your dad and talk to him yet? If yes, touch me on my back and tell me yes. If no, its time brother. (Its weird that I post it here, it just cross my mind so bare with it)

For Teck Yong's case. His whole family except the 2nd elder brother wasn't there. For your information, he come from a family of 5 brothers. As I have went to his house for times, I know how his family communicate, how his mother talk and plus minus of stuff. Then before leaving, I saw tears in Teck Yong's mum's eyes. At that point I'm like, opss.  It's human nature so ok, lets move on.

Then for my case.  I felt like I was the most blessed 1 at the moment. I have my whole family with me. Grandma who has something going on later that day still make it there for me. And before leaving, I took the chase to hug everyone of my family. It's probably the only time I hug my grandma since I go to primary school. And same goes to my father and mother. To my surprise, my father was the one with tears in his eyes, at that moment I know that I was the one that's wrong.

There's one thing that I want to share here. I was so wrong and selfish that the way I feel loved is by family doing the thing that pleased me and in that way, I'm loved. But I'm wrong. No matter how or what the parents did, they did it for they love you. You might feel that the way they are doing thing is totally wrong and at times you just have the idea of "F.O." in your mind. But think again, what you can do to argue with them a little lesser and love them a little more? THINK! :)

So there goes the little thing that I picked up from leaving my comfort zone and coming here to Sarawak. The next 3 years is gonna be long tough time. There's a lot of thing that I couldn't let go at my comfort zone. But God has a purpose for me here, and I'll surely find it out and be strong with Christ.

Thanks for reading my long unplanned post. May God be with you through all the good and the bad.
God bless you.

Regards,

PangkyPang

Doomsday?! Nah, Just Another Day

1st of all, this is gonna be a post that's gonna be boring. When you find it boring, just click on the "x" button and go, alright?


The worry.ness of getting into which uni and which course have been kicking on others since like, since they got their STPM results? or since they submitted the uni application form? I seriously don't know. I don't have the worry.ness kicking me all this while, why? Maybe I'm looked down on the people who's applying Psychology? Maybe I'm too confident with myself? Or maybe I'm living in my own fantasy of getting into psychology course and come out with master's cert and go on with my life as a psychology lecturer?!


Yes! I do live in my fantasy for long. I wanted psychology so badly that I think I can get it. But seriously, I just don't get it now. Felt the depression I have now? Well, chill, I was depress the second I know I didn't get psycholody, I'm even depress when I know I got Biotech. It's because Biotech, I was trying to fill in the space only wei, but now I got it, how?!


When I joined a church camp last year and Uncle Jacker asked us what is our ambition. Without a second thoughts, I told him I want to be a psychologist, well, not really psychologist but I want knowledge about psychology. Then he told me psychology is a different from bible. What bible says is facts, is God's word, is truth. While psychology is just theory, is assumption, is theory, is statistic from research. He told me to have strong foundation of bible knowledge before I stepped into psychology field because my faith might get eaten up by the knowledge of psychology. At that point of time, I didn't tell myself to give up on psychology. Instead, I want to use my knowledge in psychology to preach the gospel 1 day. I don't if this works but I believe something can be done. Therefore I'm inspired more of taking up psychology. I wanted to do something more to glorify Him. To let people know Him. But now all it left is, how to glorify Him and preach His word with Biotech? And another question to myself, will the facts and theory in science blind me from God's words and His works on earth?


I believe that He is true. I believed that He saved me.  I believed that He died hanging on the cross for my sins, not only mine, but yours too. I have experienced what I called it "Hell", that's when I turned to God and I know what I experienced wasn't even near to the real hell because He heard my prayer and He hold me up till now He's still holding me. Want to know what's the real hell is? Its not what you see in the movie with fire and demons all around. Even if there's fire and demon down there, it wasn't the scariest thing yet. The scariest thing is that when you pray and you heard no reply, when you are desperate for Him and He will not be there. Why I talked so much about God? Because I know clearly this is what God has for me. There must be something I have to achieve in there and I'm taking it up. I'll still appeal because I'm very self-centered and I eagerly want what I want but still I won't lose faith in His decisions.


I know I blah.ed too much and people who don't believe in God and clicked "X" half way reading, I hope you find God someday. N for people that you're reading this line. I know you're my good friend for sure and I just hope that you put yourself at a neutral state and think. Go and find out what God really has done for us. I'm sure you know the name Jesus Christ but do you know who is He? Do you know what He has done for us? Do you ever asked question about Him? Do you ever try to know Him a little bit more? Go and know this great man who's greater than Steve Jobs, greater than Will Smith, greater than anyone on earth. I pray to God that whoever's reading this you'll find God someday and turn to him and repent for your sins. 


Finally, the above is just pure blah.ing about my faith and my eager to know Him more and my eager for you to find Him. This is what I sincerely wanna tell you this. At the moment you might feel lost, feel depress, feel sucky, feel alone, feel odd, feel everything you can feel. Just remember this, no matter you have faith in God or not, He's the one looking at you and planning for you. His plan is perfect and as long as you have faith in Him, He'll give you more than what you deserve. Feeling weak, turn to Him and pray for strength. Feeling lost and alone, turn to Him and pray for comforts. He is almighty and only by you turning to Him, He'll show you who He is. Believe!


Thanks for reading this post. Hope you find something here as you reading this.
Good day and may God bless you :)


Reminder to self: God doesn't give me what I deserve, He gives me what I need. If I get what I deserve, I wouldn't be here typing this anymore.

Regards,

PangkyPang

Hooked with Youtube

Readers, look who's back here? LOL. If you still see this post, I don't know how and why you did because this blog been dead a long time already.

Anyway, this post is just a little sharing about what I stalked on Youtube.

I'm not a usually on Youtube before this because my streamyx is a little slow plus bro is a online gamer. So the buffering really make me speechless. There's when I lost touch with Youtube.

Since house steamyx had been updated and line got faster, therefore I now feel more comfortable with Youtube. So the below is a little videos I found and made me a regular Youtube viewer as well :P

I am not a Jayesslee fans before this, but the truth is, I don't even know who they are before I entered form 6. Since some of my friend posted them up on their FB page, I got to know them like "Oh.. Jayesslee." kind of way, till I heard they are coming to M'sia for concert, then I started stalking them and woots, I know them now like "Yay!! JAYESSLEE!! XD" *random* 

Personally I liked most of their songs, other than their korean song which I don't understand at all :P So skipped their songs. I liked the way they share their testimony in places like church and concert. Below are 1 of the song I liked the most, Payphone!! :D

And yes! I went to their concert in KL this year for FREE! How I get it? You'll know soon :)

Then I subscribed to  WongFuProductions as well. Hmm, WongFu is made up of 3 very good friends and they produce diff type of videos like romance, comedy, and so on. If you are interested, you should really stalk them :) This is one of the video that I find funny. Take a look!

New Year Resolution Failed ==

Check out their weekly vlog known as WongFuWeekends too. Some of it will surely catch your eyes :)

This is what I'm currently looking at their videos. The JubileeProjects . I don't really know the people that appearing in the video yet but what caught my eyes was, their video is made for fundraising purposes or raise awareness on recent issue, kinda wow for me. Just impressed with their work. Here's a vid I bumped into when stalking them, 4 parts in total, watch them all :)

Besides, Malaysia Youtuber do produce a lot of nice video too. I liked JinnyBoyTV myself, I guessed others will like them too for their creativity? LOL. Enjoy the vid that makes me LOL the 1st time I watch them :D

ABUDEN?!

So this is basically what I watch on Youtube. There are more awesome people and videos out there for me to explore. More to come I hope :) 

Alright, that's all for now and WOAH! You read this line? 

Thanks for reading it all, its a boring post that I made up in office. 

No picture and No colored fonts to keeps you awake. 

Anyway, enjoy your day and God bless everyone of you :)

Best Regards,

PangkyPang

Langkawi Trip With The 6A1 Peepos :)

I said I’ll only post things begining from 2012 but here’s a really memorable trip that I wanted to share and also keep it here for me to read in the future :)

It was few days after our STPM ended and we’re like all hyped for the trip. And like I said its a 6A1 trip and why me as a 6A3 student were there? Well, its simple, because I’m close with the A1 peeps. There are few reasons at the back of it, 1st it was because I have my best friends + old friends in the class like Tan, Wen, P.Khai, J.Tzen, 2nd, A1 has the highest number of librarian and I know most of them. So I actually know 90%? maybe of A1 peeps.

This happened somehow silly because A3 actually wanted to come out with something but ended up failed :x Yeah, so me and Terung was invited to join A1 class trip. N right after we settled with Calvin about our class stuff, we said yes to the organizer of the trip :D There we go!

Ok. Its been like months after I came back from the trip so my memories is actually blurred but I’ll put it in words as much as I can :)

We all gather at a petrol station on the night before our trip started and all of us were super excited for the trip. Took sometime standing there before the bus actually reach, by the time its there it was like 11pm?! Or 12am? Forgotten. This is my 3rd time to Langkawi but it was my 1st time travelling there by bus and ferry?boat? (correct me please) The whole journey is about 6 hours and we reached there about 6am in the morning. Well, the way I slept in bus is better not to be eleborated :P Had breakfast at some place early in the morning then there we go to the ferry?boat?

First day of trip started, once we reached Pulau Langkawi, it was straight to island hoping. Take boat from island to island and I’m glad that I went to some island which I have not set foot there yet. If not go same island not syok rite XP Then night was free time for us. I had a room with Tan Terung UV n George. N our room was connected to Y.Kiang’s room, so it ended up becoming at meeting room in the night la. Besides choc that’s cheap in Langkawi, what else rite? Yeah, its alcohol. Ain’t wanna talk like I’m a good boy. I drank & drunk in Langkawi once too, and I have my lesson there because it ain’t a good feeling after all, the vomit and headache :O So I’m off from it this time, so there’s a room for drinking game and another room for random game. Thanks to Y.Hong for his PSP that keep me company for all the free time I have there. Doesn’t have much idea of what happened on the 1st night, but I know we went bed earlier la.

Second day was whole free day, no tour guide with us so we have to plan our own routine for the day. So we decided to rent car and go around places that we wanted to go. But the car rental took of quite a long time so it actually make us have shorter time to travel. N thanks to the driver for taking us all around, the car seriously have some shitty problems wei. Tan’s car doesn’t have air-cond and then water boiled half way. N that make Tan to throw a finger boner. But luckily those problem were settled fast. We went to a mall called Langkawi Mall i guess but it has nothing much inside, so we take off to another shopping mall which is way better + it has a cinema there. Planned to buy ticket and watch movie in the night but plan failed. Night time again, and this night weren’t a good night. It was the same, they play their games and we played ours, but some of them got really drunk. Inn thrown up in his room and caused everyone in his room to sleep over in our room while my roommates spend our night in lobby. Besides, some thrown up words that they’ve keep in their heart for long time. N there’s when I say, getting drunk weren’t so bad afterall because I personally thinks that after someone speak out his/her problems, he/she will feel a little bit relieved somehow, my opinion la. But it was a very cool night too, I spent the whole night in lobby with Y.Hong while he’s with netbook and I’m with his PSP, n I was awake the whole night *NEW ACHIEVEMENT MADE :D*

Third day, it was to the waterfall and cable car. I felt totally excited but my body is tired so I took all the time in bus sleeping :P Once we reached the waterfall, we all went into it and it was fun to have all the crazy peeps in there. Craziness + laughter going on. The waterfall was nice, like a water massage, shuang!! Up next is the cable car, we walk on a road surrounded by trees on the both side n that just make me feel fresher after the body massage. When we reached the cable car area, the queue was LOOOONG :O But all thanks to the tour guide because he bought the tickets for us while we’re wandering around. Shocked a bit when saw him, he looked ‘chao da’ XD So up and up we go, I was with Tan, Wen, S.Lye, X.Hong n Terung, all we was discussing is about what happened when we’re in the queue. Kinda funny duhh. LOL. Took tonnes of photo up there where I’ll show later. About 3pm in the noon, we all went back to place near hotel n had thai style lunch, not bad though. Next was the craziest thing we did together, we went to play banana boat. Initially plan was we divide into 2 boats but ended up all 11 of us were on a single banana. N all the crazy time happened just right there. A1 was a physic class so I think they came out with some way where we can balance ourself and prevent us from falling into the water. N it actually worked somehow, stayed on the banana boat longer than usual :D Nice, but later we were all late and all 4 of us actually used the bathroom with door opened. Another craziness, LOL!! Spent night in the city for dinner and choc hunting. Then back in hotel, they were still energetic so they continue to play games and that night we all slept earlier and really had a good night sleep :)

Final day, rises early in the morning because we have to catch up with the ferry?boat? But unfortunately, the bus had some problem so we’re actually late to reach the jetty, but Thank God because we still manage catch up the ferry?boat? on time. Phew. Remembered how we ran with all our luggage. Then we’re all off from Langkawi. On the way back home, we stopped by at Ipoh to have our lunch then a shop to buy some biscuit n stuff. N arrived in Klang at 7++pm in the night. Woots. Last thing we do together was a group photo then ciao~

Well, this trip was definitely a total different 1. I got nagged by parents for going to the same place for times but I think its worth it because it was a trip with the Form6 friends I met and a trip with the old friends. So I have no regrets :) Thank you guys for letting me into your class trip as it was really a memorable 1. That’s it for all the talking. There goes pics!! :D

A1 + A3 :D

Waterfall time

In the air :)

The Goodbye pic

(: !The 3 of US! :)
!st time travelling together.

A pic to end the post.

Thanks for reading peeps.

Best regards,
PangkyPang

Back Here After So Long :P

Well. Peeps who's still concerned to click on my blog link and see this dusty + full with spider web blog. Thanks you guys for the concern, been a long time and you guys still mind to click made me tear drops T.T Joking la XD LOL!

Alright. Hope it to see you guys expression when you were reading the first line. Hmm. Some explaination (excuses) I'll give here for this dusty blog. Erm, it was partially my netbook's prob, dropped it on the floor while charging and the charger thingy spoiled and that made me couldn't excess to the old 'microsoft writter' i guess which I usually used. But you guys will think bla bla bla. So I'll stop here :P

Yeah, I gone through the pic I have snapped or being snapped from the time I stopped blogging and it made my jaw dropped to the floor. Picture banyak like crazy. So sorry la, because I ain't gonna update it 1 by 1. Since its a new 2012 (new ke? Feb ending d la :P), I'll try to update my life of 2012 but I think I'll somehow go back to 2011 (I like old time ma). So do give more concern and give a click under my link ok XP No la, your choice of clicking it or not, I have no issue with that as I'm worried that I'll disappoint you guys. Alright. That's all for the kick start blogging.

My aim which I just have since I blog this : Buy a new charger ASAP! Like in desperate need only :P

Regards,

Pangky Pang