LIfe is killing me!! Muz overcome my fear!! Gosh!!

My god.. Kem Tutti is coming.. N i haven even tell my parents yet..
Wat is this wei.. Now 11.45pm.. I suppose to talk to my father bout this..
Has pray to god for few times d.. But i juz couldnt get a chance to talk to him..
My Lord pls save me la.. I hav to tell wei.. Or else how am i gonna make it for Tutti??

Somemore today went to HQ!!
Supposely i ad tell my exco im not goin Ops Cahaya Tutti..
But suddenly sir called kiri n talk to him.. Gone la..
Kiri is giving me pressure n ask me to go for Ops!!
Its really Ops for me la.. How to tell?? I haven even got chance to talk to him??
Should i juz leave a letter to him?? It may make my life easier rite??

Haiz.. Decision making time.. Wat can i do?? Wat can i do??
God pls save me.. Seriously i cant take it this way.. I muz find a way to settle this..
Ops Cahaya Tutti + Camp Tutti Fratelli!!
I muz make it..

God pls bless me for this..
Seriously this would be my last time to go out for activity like this..
After all im gonna focus on study oni..
Pls gimme another chance..
God bless!! God bless!!