LIfe is killing me!! Muz overcome my fear!! Gosh!!

My god.. Kem Tutti is coming.. N i haven even tell my parents yet..
Wat is this wei.. Now 11.45pm.. I suppose to talk to my father bout this..
Has pray to god for few times d.. But i juz couldnt get a chance to talk to him..
My Lord pls save me la.. I hav to tell wei.. Or else how am i gonna make it for Tutti??

Somemore today went to HQ!!
Supposely i ad tell my exco im not goin Ops Cahaya Tutti..
But suddenly sir called kiri n talk to him.. Gone la..
Kiri is giving me pressure n ask me to go for Ops!!
Its really Ops for me la.. How to tell?? I haven even got chance to talk to him??
Should i juz leave a letter to him?? It may make my life easier rite??

Haiz.. Decision making time.. Wat can i do?? Wat can i do??
God pls save me.. Seriously i cant take it this way.. I muz find a way to settle this..
Ops Cahaya Tutti + Camp Tutti Fratelli!!
I muz make it..

God pls bless me for this..
Seriously this would be my last time to go out for activity like this..
After all im gonna focus on study oni..
Pls gimme another chance..
God bless!! God bless!!

TQIS!! I miss it!! WTF!!

Hmm... What is this.. I juz finish see VAD 43 de blog..
Its all the pic of TQIS!! Feeling bloody 1 kind now.. Haiz..
Actually, i ad ready everything to attend TQIS 1 week b4..
But who noe.. On Thursday my mother suddenly ask me to go work..
WTF.. I wan go TQIS la.. But wat to do.. Till now i haven even tell my family tat i goin Tutti..
Somemore if i tell my mother tat i no wan go work bcuz i wan go HQ means tat will be no hope for me to go Tutti this year..
Wif all this point.. My mind juz tell me.. If wan go Tutti mean cant go TQIS.. Hav to do so la..

But now i really feel damn sakit hati la.. Sob..
Mother.. Seriously i dun like to work now.. Pls dun keep asking me to always go work..
It has been 2 months i working on Sat n Sun.. I no wan ad.. PLS!!

God bless me..
I wan go Tutti..
I dun wan go work..
I wan get good result..
GOD BLESS!!!